Ever felt that you're afraid to attachment and addiction, you stay away abit? I have. But long time ago. As I got older, I dont strain myself into any attachment and addiction, as I realize, when the time it has to fade, it will fade. Although it would require abit tears and such, it will fade.
Being on and off me, might be tiring for those who has the effort, but none of my plan. I could very clingy one day, and then I could be very forgetful in the next day. None of my plan. I never planned it that way. I find it abit tiring to clingy when I actually need some distance.
Oh you're a guy that has the same level of ignorance with me and you wished a girl that constantly attached. And oh my God that "constantly" word abit scares me. I barely being constant with my fam. Being un-constantly doesnt mean love affair or amnesia, I better define it as 'space'. But being spacy definitely doesnt mean not-clingy.
Oh yeah it feels good writing this. I just realized, in these years I've waited some names, I actually wondering how much the netto time that I spent of 'waiting'. And guys, dont bluffing about the length of time you waited, ever thought about the netto time? Bet not as long as you think you've waited.
I dont know why I detach like this. But I think it's fine as long I'm attached. Occasionally.